It has been raining in our town, a string of wet, dark, gloomy days that make it easy to stay inside, easy to sit sipping tea wondering about life, wondering how I’ve come to be alone, how I’ve loved my wife with all my heart but that was not enough to save her from dementia.
The words of Joni Mitchell come to mind-
Tears and fears and feeling proud,
To say “I love you” right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I’ve looked at life that way
But now old friends they’re acting strange
They shake their heads, they say I’ve changed
Well something’s lost, but something’s gained
In living every day.
I’ve looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
It’s life’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know life at all
-lyrics from “Both sides Now” by Joni Mitchell, 1968
No, I really don’t know life at all.
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Tio, You’ve got that “something’s lost but something’s gained” thing down profoundly. Be well, carry on, and thanks for sharing.
You’re most welcome.